I swear the scales are like an old friend named Martha that I must chat with before I start my day. But at the same time, I dread what they will say. What if I am up? Will that ruin my whole day? So before I step on the scales I have these little conversations in my head. Things like, "Well you know you did just have that big glass of water." or "You know AF is due and you always weigh higher at that TOM." I psych myself up so that if I step on the scales and I am up, I am okay with it and I don't count it as being a terrible failure on my part.
Now Martha is old and she isn't digital. She changes her mind depending on where I put her and how I stand. So, I am looking to replace her with fine young digital model that is more accurate. But I have this little fear. What if when I get the new model, I am no longer below 200 lbs. I am so proud to finally be below there and if I am not, I will be disappointed. But then again, if I am on those scales it will almost make it more real, you know.
See I used to really obsess over the scales (no trust me it can get worse than this). I used to weigh myself a lot. Every time I ate, I weighed myself. It was stupid and I was obsessed. And the number on the scale had the power to affect my mood and everything I ate from then on. So, now, I have all these little conversations with myself to keep me from becoming that crazy psycho lady with all those crazy thoughts going in my head.
Now, I am almost normal, if you ignore the fact that I talk to myself and that my scales are named martha, my computer is Bob and my coffee perk is Sally Jr.
Do you do any of this stuff? Tell me I am not alone in this crazy little world of mine.
Food for Tuesday:
- 0 points--coffee
- 2 points--egg white omelet
- 2 points--granola bar
- 2 points--low fat weiner
- 2 points--ww bun
- 0 points--1/2 tomato
- 1 point--1 orange
- 2 points--rice crispy square
- 4 points--chicken
- 0 points--veggies
- 4 points--granola bar
- 2 points--yogurt
- 2 points--chicken soup
- 2 points--low fat frankfurters
- 1 point--sugar free/fat free yogurt
- 26 points--Total for Tuesday
I am out of coffee!!! Beware for caffeineless me! It is a scary scary thing to see! Thank god tomorrow is grocery day!
7 comments:
I have a balance beam scale just like they have at the doctor's office that is tucked away in my pantry.
I try to only weigh in once a week but there are times that I have to know which way the scale is going.
I can be very OCD when I am really concentrating on weight loss.
Journaling definitely helps.
I bought a new scale a few months ago and I was worried about that too. I had my old, my new and the scale at my support group. I use my support group as my official weigh in but yet I use my own scale. It really depends.
Anyways I digress. When I got the new scale I was disappointed when it weighed me 2 lbs heavier. So for about a week I'd weigh myself on both scales. And after a while it was only a .5 lb difference. I don't get it but it was enough to satisfy me and I didn't let it get to me.
I really wouldn't worry so much. You've done an awesome job so far!
Hi TC, Thanks for the visit and comment. You have encouraged me to not worry so much about that loose skin and strive to be a healthy weight. I love your blog. Yes I do all of the scale and name things but I have never had egg whites. You are doing so good. Congratulations on your weight loss so far. Not to far to go towards your goal, isn't that exciting? I haven't weighed in since The first Tuesday in June. I miss the support system but I can't go back until Sept. I need to put myself out there instead of always talking about weight related affairs. See you later. Bless you.
My scale is like an old friend that I hate and is always wrong, but I still have to know their opion.
We have a newer digital scale and it changes is mind on my wieght all the time and is never the same as the scale at WW.
I decided that because I'm looking to loose so much weight, the 1 - 2 lbs loss isn't that huge for me, I want to see 5+lbs dropping off at a time - so I'm not only weighing myself once a month. At the beginning, I wasn't stepping on it at all.
You're right when you say that it effects your moods, and I don't want that. I don't want to be feeling fine one second and a number to change that. I will get healthy without the number verification every day - because lets face it.. if I can't see the differences.. then who the Hell cares what that scale tells me.
YOU GO GIRL!!! :) I found your link.. somehow-- I'm so impressed! I'll be back for sure. I also weigh in every day, but count it for just weigh in day-- keeps me honest and knowing what I am doing.
I can tell you that you are not crazy. I understand that you don't want to get a new scale. i have one of the WW scales and it is pretty accurate from when i weight in at meetings. Keep up the good work though
Hugsandsunshine
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