I swear the scales are like an old friend named Martha that I must chat with before I start my day. But at the same time, I dread what they will say. What if I am up? Will that ruin my whole day? So before I step on the scales I have these little conversations in my head. Things like, "Well you know you did just have that big glass of water." or "You know AF is due and you always weigh higher at that TOM." I psych myself up so that if I step on the scales and I am up, I am okay with it and I don't count it as being a terrible failure on my part.
Now Martha is old and she isn't digital. She changes her mind depending on where I put her and how I stand. So, I am looking to replace her with fine young digital model that is more accurate. But I have this little fear. What if when I get the new model, I am no longer below 200 lbs. I am so proud to finally be below there and if I am not, I will be disappointed. But then again, if I am on those scales it will almost make it more real, you know.
See I used to really obsess over the scales (no trust me it can get worse than this). I used to weigh myself a lot. Every time I ate, I weighed myself. It was stupid and I was obsessed. And the number on the scale had the power to affect my mood and everything I ate from then on. So, now, I have all these little conversations with myself to keep me from becoming that crazy psycho lady with all those crazy thoughts going in my head.
Now, I am almost normal, if you ignore the fact that I talk to myself and that my scales are named martha, my computer is Bob and my coffee perk is Sally Jr.
Do you do any of this stuff? Tell me I am not alone in this crazy little world of mine.
Food for Tuesday:
- 0 points--coffee
- 2 points--egg white omelet
- 2 points--granola bar
- 2 points--low fat weiner
- 2 points--ww bun
- 0 points--1/2 tomato
- 1 point--1 orange
- 2 points--rice crispy square
- 4 points--chicken
- 0 points--veggies
- 4 points--granola bar
- 2 points--yogurt
- 2 points--chicken soup
- 2 points--low fat frankfurters
- 1 point--sugar free/fat free yogurt
- 26 points--Total for Tuesday
I am out of coffee!!! Beware for caffeineless me! It is a scary scary thing to see! Thank god tomorrow is grocery day!